Ups & Downs

Well, what can I say? I am back, and you know what that means... I'm in one of my depressive moods again. Well, not much really. Some things make my days worthwhile.

My cousins from San Francisco, Paul & Kristine, are here in the PI & it always feels so good to have relatives around. Though we only spent about 4 days together. They went to Boracay with my Brother the whole week last week but I was able to hang out with them when they got back.

They went shopping while I drove them around. We had some good laughs at their adventures & mis-adventures in Boracay. We also went for a good massage the other night!

Kristine & I were able to talk before our bodies shut down at night (or should I say "MY body shut down?!?"). We'd exchange our deepest concerns & problems, & we'd give each other advises. To think, Kristine is only 20! She's also my Godchild through Confirmation. She also gave me this Prayer Booklet today, which really touched my heart.

We went to one of our Great-Aunts in Bulacan yesterday & we had a lot of fun. We had our bellies full & we enjoyed the books that Lolo Ponch had. We also enjoyed playing with Ate Tammy's baby, Chico. Chico's such a cute Red Poodle! He's so friendly & he loves to snuggle! We also played a few rounds of Billiards in their Pool Table.

After they leave on Thursday, it will be back to reality for me. Harsh Reality.

Well, what can I say?!? I never seem to learn. Damn! I trust people too much! I never should do that unless they're family.

Ever felt betrayed by people you think are your friends? Well, I've been there a whole lot of times and I never seem to learn from it. Dang! No details. Maybe next time. I really don't want to think about it anymore.

Let Go & Let GOD, Elaine!

Life's Simple Pleasures

I was tagged by my good friend, Tin Racho. This actually made me feel better. Not really happy, but comforted. It made me know what is real from what is not.

It’s a great thing to be able to count your blessings, even the simplest ones.

Instructions: Name ten (10) of life’s simple pleasures that you like the most, then pick ten (10) people to do the same. Try to be original and creative and not to use things that someone else has already used.

1. Family. No matter what situation I am in, I can always turn to them for comfort & support. When I need a pick-me-upper, they're always there. Whenever I need a reality check, I know my Mom will always give me a heads-up.

2. Driving. It releases my stress. If I'm depressed, I'd go for long drives to forget.

3. Dinners With BLD Friends. I love having dinner with my BLD Friends. They never fail to make me feel that God still loves me despite my unworthiness. They also make me feel loved for who I am & they do not try to change me into someone I am not. Even the most cheapest dinners seem like Fine Dining when I'm with them.

4. My Bed. I find comfort in it. When I have problems, I cry myself to sleep & I never dream about my problems. When I wake up, my pillows hug me the way I needed to be hugged.

5. Bonding With My Cousins. I think that they make the greatest friends. We can talk about everything under the sun & still stick together. It's like a mini-support group. They support you, laugh with you, cry with you, sing crap with you & love you unconditionally. One thing is also sure... Our Memories will really live on forever!!! (We have no choice! Hahaha!)

6. Lounging In The Beach. I used to be a Swimming Pool person, but I find lying in the sand more relaxing & calming. It soothes my weary soul & washes away my worries.

7. Watching the Sun rise & set. It makes me feel peaceful. I find the beauty & power of God's love every time I watch the sun rise or set. It's so powerful.

8. When A Client Thanks Me. Whenever a client thanks me for helping them out, calling me an Angel or a Savior, it feels so good. Not that I am one, but the satisfaction of knowing that you are able to help out someone in need, justifies my work.

9. BLOGGING. I know I can always depend on my BLOG. I release all my anger, happiness, frustrations, excitement & loneliness here. After I release them, I feel unburdened. It's like talking to a good friend (Which I don't have right now). After I vent out, I feel relieved. I move on. My BLOG is my outlet.

The LAST but never the LEAST...

10. GOD. I know that I should pray more than what I do. And I know that I should put him first in my life. No wonder I'm always getting hurt, betrayed & let down... It's because I never put God first. I just realized it now, when my cousin & I talked about our respective problems. God has always been patient with me, though I shrug him off a lot. I do know, however, that no matter how much I shrug Him off, He will always be there to love & hold me whenever I need Him. I can run to Him anytime. And no other Pleasure is is more Simpler than that.

I'm not gonna tag anyone specifically, 'coz I don't know who'll respond. At any rate, whoever wants to get tagged... You're it!